Normally I dont get very sappy here but I am in the mood to chitter and chatter I guess. One of those bipolar things I have to go through at some times in my life. Right now I am feeling lonely and have no valid reason to feel like that at all. I have the best friends in the world and I literally mean the world. My very best friend lives in England, and she is like my twin. My 'sister from another mother' lives in Tennessee as well as does a couple very important other friends of mine. Then I have friends from Australia, Africa, and so on and so forth, you get the idea. All of these people are all so important to me yet right now I am feeling lost and lonely.
I could pick up the phone and call a couple of them but then I would feel as if I were intruding as its Christmas after all. So why is it that all of a sudden I feel like this today? Im not entirely sure. I have the man in my life that I have been waiting what seems like an entire lifetime for. Trust me ladies and gents he is a gem of gems and I think my knight in shining armour. Its been three short months but it feels like I have known him an eternity. Im not sure what true honest in love feelings are but I think I am on the verge of being in love. I get butterflies when I see him, think of him and when we are together. I cherish every second we have and wish we had a million more of them. I know a lot of people wouldnt and dont approve because he is latino and I am white and to them I so so what. I dont see anything a person has on the outside all I see is what is on the inside, thats where the real value lies.
Still with him, and all my friends I am sitting here typing with tears streaming down my face wondering why I feel so lost and alone. I know Im not yet cant escape this feeling. If you read this and think man is this chick psycho maybe I am but at least Im an honest one.
Anyway, I think I have chittered and chattered enough for now, if you want to comment feel free, and if you dont well dont.
As always............................
hugs, Auds
weirdo!!! you know i am always a call away!! all you would ever be interupting is my kids being nutzo as always!!!
ReplyDeleteYou know I love you too silly!
ReplyDeleteHe looks like someone who would be easy to love and who am I to judge. You will love who you are intended so all I can say is GOOOOOO Girl!
ReplyDeleteI have been married 52 years and I hope you make it that long.
From my understanding, writing your feelings is one of the reasons for a blog! I have major depression and anxiety, so I hear ya on feeling yucky! It seems like the holidays are always a little depressing, sometimes even when you are in the middle of a group of family members! I'm hoping I'll "lighten up" after this weekend!lol And you too!:-)
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