I thought of you again today and how much you mean to me and you're not even here yet. Know that grammie loves you very much.
Dear baby Bellanceau,
Today my heart aches. I'm being selfish in my thinking because I know I'm never going to see you and that makes grammie very sad and hurt. I want to be there the day you're born and hear you breathe your first breath and I want to hold you and sing to you. I want you to know that grammie will always be there for you no matter what. I know you're growing big and strong waiting for your birthday day to come and I want to be there very badly. I am hoping things change and I can meet you but as things are now I don't forsee that happening. Just know that I love you with all my heart and soul and I cherish you more than you can imagine.
Love you forever,