The Sadness

Never have I ever felt the need to drink myself into oblivion! I always sit and wonder why anyone would do such a thing to their bodies. It wasn't until it happened to me that I realized people sometimes can't control how they act and how they respond to situations while under the influence.. I remember that day with 100% clarity and at times i wish I could forget the horror of it all. 

It started out like any other day, heading off to work on a Saturday morning early to beat the rush of traffic that I knew would soon ensue. I remember seeing the birds as they flew around and how beautiful the clouds looked that morning and the sun was just starting to rise over the horizon. I didn't see it coming but I felt it and I remember every detail from the moment it happened.

I had taken but a moment to look into my drivers side mirror as I was ever diligent. I should have been looking in my passenger side view mirror because that's where it came from. They were in my right side blind spot and I felt a sudden jerk of the car. I was then air born and my arms were waving around the car out of my control.The metal crunching was a horrific sound and the glass that was shattering was falling all around me and piercing my skin. The car rolled four times and with each roll I was more damaged than before. I told myself I was not going to pass out I was going to survive this no matter what. 

The car came to a rest after what seemed like an eternity but in fact was mere seconds. I was conscious the entire time and my cell phone was just out of my reach and I did not dare take off my seat belt, I wasn't sure how badly I was or wasn't hurt at that point. I tried to reach my cell phone but it was no use, I hoped to hear voices soon of the person who had hit me so violently. All I heard were screeching tires and then silence for a few minutes. I would say I was alone there wondering if I would ever be found when my salvation came to me as rush hour began for the day. I must have landed in the middle of the lane because the voice I heard told me to not move, he said help was on the way and grabbed my hand and held it until fire and rescue arrived. 

I was extricated from the vehicle and flown to a trauma center. The doctors were all amazed at the level of my consciousness. I was scared and nervous and no one would answer any of my questions. I remember the doctor telling me they were taking me to the O.R. and he would see me soon. The next thing I remember was waking up in recovery. I had a broken leg, three broken ribs I had been pierced by metal   in my abdomen and I had lost a lot of blood on the scene of the accident. 

I spent two weeks in the hospital trying to recover. I had many visitors and many of them were from the police station asking me for as many details as I could remember. I gave them all I could and they were diligently looking for the person who could have easily taken my life. 

It was a week after the accident that the woman was found. She was a repeat D.U.I. offender and admitted that she had caused the accident but didn't want to go to jail because she had been drinking. She was taken into custody and she remains there now. 

I am almost out of my cast and I am almost completely healed from surgery. What I will never be almost is afraid to live my life to the fullest. I will not let this get the best of me and I will not let one persons bad decisions affect how I live the rest of my life.